Good Day World'

Good day world and this is my first public writing in quite sometime.  I've been expressing myself to the public through pictures.  I call them inspiration pictures.  I use to write and do a 30 minute therapy session writing and it has been a long time coming.  Pictures can express much more than I can say in words.  I did post a blog or two when I arrived her at Fort Lyon back in October and it was pretty much the samo' samo' everyday.  I was quite depressed when I got here and I spent numerous time at the library and I learned to express myself through inspiration pictures through facebook.com.  It has not been a waste of time as the time invested I've made over 4500 friends and have over 100 followers.  5000 max is the most I can have.  I don't ask for friendships like I did back when I got here and now I receive them and I'm quite surprised on some of the people that ask me for their friendships.  Most of my friends are well known photographers and artists.  I have authors, CEO's... all types of friends from all over the world and I'm happy that I can "touch" someone with my sharing of other photographs from my friends.  I do share some of them on my blog and hope not to infringe on their copyrights.  I've dedicated one complete blog to just photographs as not to blemish their work.  I've posted blogs on very special photographs.  I do give them credit and cite their url as well.  Thus, I've decided to seperate my writings from my pictures.

When I got here back in October, I had nothing other than the clothes on my back and for the most part I continue to have the same clothes plus a few additional the Colorado Coalition for the Homeless provided me.  I had no funds for 30 days at all and then then would give a small allowance... or a stipend that call it.  I got 5.00 a week until I reached my 90 days and then afterwards, they started changing it all up and I still get about the same now.  My case manager however does assist when I have special needs.  Cindy, my sister has also helped me out with 20.00 here and there and thank goodness.  I still smoke, but have cut down considerably.  I used to smoke at least a pack a day and I've learned to stretch that one pack to 4 days.  In January, I started school at Otero Junior College. I took 2 English composition classes and a introduction to Computer classes.  I was able to get a grant and I received 700.00 to use for my schooling. I invested about 500.00 of that on a nice laptop with a big screen and later I invested in a camera which cost about 100.00.  It was a long time coming for that camera.  I have taken many photographs and have published them through my Flicker account and Facebook and last night I posted a few to Myspace.com and I also post to Google +.  I'm involved in many photography groups in Facebook and share my photo's when I upload them.  I enjoy publishing my original print to those groups and have even received a few awards.

I did a all nighter last night which means I didn't sleep, but then I didn't get up until 1600 or so.  Aah.. the memory of writing my blog "chillin at 1600".  Anyways, I take 300mg of Trazadone before I go to sleep and it does a good job.  Such a good job, that I don't want to get up :).  Actually, I've felt a bit down lately and I'm still I guess depressed for being here and I simply don't want to get up.  I have no commitments.  I graduated my 3 classes and in fact finished my computer class in less than 1/2 semester.  I was the first one done... We have a break and I will most likely take some more classed here shortly where I plan on taking a few more classes and then I'm most likely taking Fall classes.  This time I'll be able to go on campus.  That should be interesting.  That is .... IF which is a big word, I first survive until then and IF I'm still here.  I'm not quite sure what to do ... I'm hanging in there.  They recommend we stay at least one full year.  This gives us one full year of recovery and most of us can earn a housing voucher.  Me, I'm a Vet and I believe I still have to wait a year.  Whatever the case, I need a job.  I need to start working.  My child support bill for 2 children I haven't seen in over a decade grows larger.  Something is wrong with that picture.  Now, they are even recommending a 2 year stay with a 2 year voucher.  A 2 year from what I understand allows me to go anywhere in the United States.  Still how does that assist me being that I'm a Veteran.  I keep hearing Veterans takej preference, but I haven't gotten preference in anything.  The VA wouldn't fix my teeth.  It has to be service connected.  What does that mean.  I had to take a bullet in the face?  Thank God for Obama care.  Me being in a homeless status allows me Medicaid... my teeth are covered.  Yes, after years and years of hiding my smile, I am scheduled to get my teeth on the 21rst.  They screwed up the first and didn't match my bottom teeth.  I have made at least 15 trips to Pueble for this special event upcoming.

OK, I have a laptop with WIFI access.  Recently I got my own room.  I have a camera loaded with pictures I have yet to download.  I have many already downloaded ready to upload.  Here at Fort Lyon, Colorado.... I'm not in any hurry.  I'm just a bit confused and am not quite sure what route I should go.  For now, I take it one day at a time and I'll continue on the route I'm on for the time being.  I am enrolled in the Colorado Vocational Rehabilitation program which I have been on a waiting list for quite sometime... Last week, they told me I was off the waiting list, but now I have to wait on them to act.  They are suppose to assist in me finding a job.  I would like to find a job for the government being I have already 14 years invested in the military.  I only need 6 years for a pension.  I would like to get involved in a apprenticeship program where they train you and pay you while they train you and guarantee you a job.  Is that too much to ask for a 14 year Navy Veteran that risked his life.  Those reconnaissance missions I was apart of flying around in circles near the USSR in a 4 prop very old plane with no parachute was high secure job.  :)

Enough for now on my first post.  Yes, this is public.  I'm trying to acquire my old Myspace blogs and am currently working on that.  Why do I make this public. ?... Why do I publish pictures. I have nothing to hide and the only thing that I have concern is that I might write something that might offend someone like my old job or the Coalition.  I don't write about anything bad, but simply I just write about the truth.  Amen'.